Empty

Oh well~ Finally, examinations are over... Studying almost got me crazy. It's like never ending. But yea, it's over. One more cycle for the coming semester and i'm gonna graduate.

The holidays are finally here, no school, no work at this moment. The freedom that i always yearn for are here. But yet, i am not enjoying at all.

Right after a day i finished my exams, the folks flew to China. Leaving me all alone at home. Yes today is only the 2nd day that i'm living alone. I cooked and ate alone, watch television alone, do all the housework alone and i'm going to sleep alone later.

I feel empty. I feel so hollow. I'm like #foreveralone.

Happy times are so short. I went shopping, i bought clothes, i was happy.

I think i have this feeling every time after my exams. I hope it's just because i'm not used to the life now. I'll get used to it soon.

I shall go search for entertainment now

Outfit of today

yes, that's my outfit of today. Needless to say, you should know where i've been today!

Quite a fruitful day. I finally cleaned my after war room.

To mark the end of my prelims? Or to prepare for the real war? 10 May is it.

Life now is pretty boring. What to do? It's exam period. I guess i've played enough. Never really touch the books from the start for my year 2 till this year?

I'll be guilt stricken if i go out and have fun at this part of time.

So right now is study study study and still study. Maybe eating at the same time! Ha this is the get fat season. And i'm not going to stop myself from eating :/

Because i feel that eating really makes me feel happier.

Omg... my 45kg target~~~ FAR FAR AWAY

I promise i will study hard hard kay! At least let the weight gained worth it! LOL

Just keep your mouth shut.

I've got no say at home. I'll never win when I argue with my mum. Not that i want to win. I just find it super unreasonable. At the end of the day she will link everything to me not doing housework.

It's like what the fuck. I woke up at 10 then she will say that I woke up late and never help her. She blames that it's because i didn't wake up early to help her in housework, she can't go out on time. Yes, me. But my little bro is still sleeping soundly on bed and she never mention a word. (This is not the first time) After which she will tell me not to compare. Tell me how not to?!

Because I'm a girl. Yes, because I'm a girl. FML

A few in One

There's just too many things that i wanted to post. Procrastinated for too long. Since the end of Children's camp, to Christmas, my uncle leaving us, my new year resolution and b.

So many things but so little time. Chinese New year is coming my mum is really pressing me hard on help her to do spring cleaning. At the same time my school work is piling up. Assignments not done, tests coming and preliminary examinations are nearing.

Debts get heavier and not lesser. Debts have been accumulating since the Children's camp. Putting many things aside to make sure my camp goes well. Well, now that its done. It's time to get everything back.

I'm still rushing for almost everyday. Rush to school, rush to work, rush to meet friends etc. Perhaps he's right, i've got poor time management? Too busy for him. Really sorry for that. But anyway, it doesn't matter anymore. We can't tolerate each other anymore. Till now, i still don't know what exactly had happen which lead to this situation. There's always this question in my mind after breakups. It's you or it's me? Why other couples can last, why we can't?

Sigh.. I really think i've got a big problem in relationships.

Okay, i need to stop emoing.

Next, new year resolution! Need to set more realistic ones..

1. Study harder than last year & get better results!!
2. 45kg! Lol
3. A happier year
4. Overseas trip with friends :D

Yea, done with my post!!! Didn't post all of what i wanted. But ya enough luhh.